exit left, one last time.

2006-02-27T19:46:00.000-08:00

Intimate reflections + stalker(s) = too much exposure.

From AA to blogspot, I have been too addicted to revealing my secrets in hopes to find someone to relate to. But I’m officially over myself and my immature solvable problems. The day I confronted my best friend was the day I learned that vents were both a waste of time and emotional pain. So bye lovers, it was great knowing that you cared.

But it wasn’t a complete waste of time, I’ll leave you with my amateur wisdom:
- don’t be embarrassed of your vulnerability, it makes you more lovable, I swear
- don’t conform to believe you deserve the status quo, you are a child of God and you deserve the best
- just because you have sinned does not mean you must pardon other’s sins against you
- just because you have lied does not mean you should continue
- lying by omission is still lying
- love only gives you so many chances, don’t blow it on some “devil”
- materials only last so long
- high school friends are gone after high school, if you want them to be
- equality is a must
- respect should be priority
- listen to what others have to say, you are usually blinded by shame or pride
- don’t be too hard on yourself, it only gives you damaged-white hair
- chocolate doesn’t affect your skin, so eat away!
- starving is not a good thing, both physically and emotionally
- hug someone you love
- being bitter is a choice, cyclical sadness is an option but joy is your alternative
- if you don’t believe in God, don’t worry
He’s been waiting for you for 17+ years and chances are he will wait another 17+
- being called fat isn’t a bad thing, the guilt is not on you but them
- your name does not define you, your actions shouldn’t but they do
- arrogance is not attractive
(but then again, neither are most boys in our school)
- gosh, I’m so funny
- deception is a taint of death, don’t do it
- you are not invincible, don’t act like it
- your ego doesn’t need all the protection you tend to give it
- it’s okay to not be okay (I effing love that one Helen…yes?)
- opportunity should be grabbed
- please refrain from being someone you are not because you are perfect the way He made you
- forgiveness is seriously still the only way you will come out on top

The day you deny your sin is the day you fall into Satan’s claws.
Stop thinking regrets are okay.
Stop living like you can’t fix things in the past.
Don’t dwell but learn.
You live like He never loved you.
But He did.

The day you lie to your best friend, sister, brother, cousin, parent is the day you lose your personal value.
I’ll forgive you and God will to, but self forgiveness is not as easy as you think.

“You are my child. I love you dearly. I’m aware that someday you’ll turn from me and walk away. But I want you to know, I’ve already provided a way back.”

Keep in mind, there is nothing you can do to make me love you less.
Well unless you deny me the luxury of eating all your chocolate.

See you losers =).

carpe diem

exit left, one last time.